AND I AM FREAKING OUT.
I am seriously so nervous that I considered not going. If I hadn't paid for the entry and was any less stubborn (trying to stick to my planned list for the year), I wouldn't be going.
But I will.
During the week the fear has been derived from just how I am normally. It doesn't matter
how many runs I do, I always don't believe I can do it. My last half was just 8 weeks ago. I know I can do this! How many runs will it take?
But over the last couple of days, I've been worried about something even more worse.
I think I'm going to be last - again.
And again, please don't shoot me down for being scared about this. I wrote here ages ago to explain why it's such a big thing for me. It's not being last that has me worried, it's
|Testing out my Body Glide today!|
And it's so embarrassing. So, so embarrassing.
The reason I'm pretty worried about this is because out of my previous halfs, 3 of them there was a marathon happening at the same time - so I blended in with the marathoners because I take so long. No-one could tell which event I was running.
But the other half I did, the half marathon was the longest distance of the day, so it was very obvious that I was one of the last few left on the course.
It's the same today - the half is the biggest run...
I've never thought of doing this before but I've been so worried that I even looked to see if I
|My breakfast and stuff laid out for today|
I just don't want to be embarrassed... :(
On a positive note, last year I did this event I did the 10km, and now I'm back doing the half. And on another positive note, unless we have another freak of nature incident, nothing can be worse than last years run.
I have no idea how I'll keep my wits about me ... but, all I can do is try.
Here I go :(