Monday, 27 March 2017

My subscriber email function has a mind of its own

Hi hi!

I'm in the middle of writing a new post, and started to include this (unrelated) stuff in it.  The post I'm writing is important and is already going to be a Kate style length, so I didn't want to clutter it with off topic random stuff.  Hence, this is a new post just to explain something quickly.

Last week I was trying to clean up some of my posts on here, because I have about 20-30 draft posts.  Some of which ended up becoming published posts but they took 1 or 2 goes; a couple that I published and then changed my mind and reverted them back into drafts; and then a whole stack of posts that I started but never finished.

While I was trying to clean them up, I republished a couple of very old ones, but they
Cartoon Kate
somehow posted as new, and then seemed to have triggered a couple of subscriber emails to be sent out- one highlighting my old/new blog post, and another sending what is approximately the last years worth of blog posts in one email.

Augh.  I don't know why, but the subscriber email thing on my blog doesn't seem to work.  I've always been on my own mailing list, (to see what gets sent out, not because I like emailing myself)😉 and over the years of writing this blog, I've never seen any consistency in the emails that I receive.  I've always just hoped that my mind-of-their-own, irregular emails in my inbox were random because I was the author, and that everyone who subscribed got a clean, pretty email each time I posted, but it appears that I'm blonde, and that's not the case.

So, if you received some oddly timed emailed posts from me last week, then please know that I possibly wrote one or two of the posts a few years ago.  And if you received an email with a years worth of blog posts all on one email: happy reading!  Jokes.

I'll try and work out what the email issue is 'one day', but it's not high on the priority list for now sorry.  If you want to keep up to date with my blog, it's probably best that you read them 'live' here, and don't rely on emails as they seem to come but once a year.😊  And if you've relied on them up till now, you may have a fair bit of catch up reading to do!😑  Sorry.  I've also just disabled the function for now until I sort it out.

So, with that said, I'm off to finish off this other new post.  It'll be up on my blog soon; either tonight or tomorrow.  

And it may or may not be emailed to you, possibly around April next year.😉 

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

1 month and 10kg down!

A few weeks ago I wrote a post titled "How to put on 10kg in 4 weeks".

Well tonight, I could in fact have called this post "How to lose 10kg in 4 weeks." 
Because I did it!  10.3kg in fact!

So I reset myself on Wednesday 8th February, and today being Wednesday 8th March is exactly 4 weeks and 1 month later!  (#datelover #geek)

This morning I weighed in with a loss of 1.9kg for the last week, which brings me to a loss of 10.3kg for the 4 weeks / month!

This past week has been the 'easiest' food wise.  Only in the sense that I haven't felt pangs to binge, and I haven't binged.  I was thinking this morning that maybe it has something to do with that whole "it takes 21 days to form a habit" thing.  Either way, it wasn't as hard as the previous 3 weeks.

I had my usual Saturday cal free day and went slightly to town with my favourite foods, and also had 2 ice blocks on Monday night.  Oh, and last Thursday night I had a family dinner and joined everyone in pre-dinner chips and dip, hoed into a large serving of my favourite family pasta dish, and then had apple
Thursday night pre-dinner snacks
crumble with ice cream, which I didn't even feel I needed, but just mindlessly had it...mmm I forgot about that night until I started writing this!

But I guess that's the point - I didn't feel I was doing the 'wrong' thing, I was just living normally, without a second thought.  And that's what I mean in that this week has been the 'easiest'.  I haven't overthought things, I've just had my planned meals and gotten on with it.  

Doing my (hated) meal prep has been the key - I haven't had too much room to reconsider things or be tempted to, I don't know, get takeaway sushi on the way home, just as an example....

I've been packing my lunch bag each night, grabbing it in the morning and defrosting dinners and smoothie bags during the day.

I have wasted three pieces of fish though, which is annoying, as it's really expensive and I took time (and a lot of whining and whingeing hatred) to prep those three pieces!  

...and apple crumble
One was because I lost my appetite briefly on Friday night (more on that later) - I cooked it up but just had ZERO desire to eat it once it was cooked.  I think I had two mouthfuls.  SO unlike me.

Another was because my oven broke a couple of nights ago.  The fish usually takes 15-20min to cook, and it was in there for 1 hour 20min and it still wasn't cooked the whole way through.  I took it out and thought it was okay, but in the end I didn't completely trust it, so erred on the side of food poisoning caution, and threw it out.

And the third was because I began defrosting the following nights fish before I realised that the oven was definitely broken.  I kept it in the fridge but I'm on Day 3 of no working oven, so into the bin it sadly went.

Seeing as my planned dinners all need my oven, and I'm eating at home every night this week is annoying, but hey, it's a pretty big first world problem, isn't it?  It should be fixed within a few days.

The first night I had the sweet potato chips that were (semi) cooking along with my fish for that 1 hour 20.  (And I topped my daily cals up with those two ice blocks I just mentioned haha).

Last night I used the microwave to defrost and heat up my second batch of protein pancakes for the day; and then tonight I had breaky for dinner - bacon and eggs on the stove.

Because I'm getting through my pancakes and fish quite quickly, I can see another meal prep being needed quite soon.


This week I decided I want to buy a chest freezer.  It's something I've thought of over the years but never really felt it was really needed.  After last weeks prep though, I couldn't fit my meals in the freezer.  I'm VERY experienced at what I call 'freezer
Ha!  I'm not the only one according to Google images!
Jenga', but even I couldn't fit everything I made into the freezer.  As in, 10 containers had to go in my fridge temporarily.  I almost wasted food because of it, and I think I'm just finally sick of having things fly out at me whenever I open the freezer door, so I started researching freezers.

I'm really excited about it!  When I lost that 20kg in 12 weeks a few years ago, I remember Tim from 12WBT bowing to me on stage when I won Top Transformation.  He was so impressed that I had prepared 3 MONTHS of meals and food to see me through the round.

Looking back at it, I'd bow for myself if I wasn't lying on my bed with my laptop propped up on my thighs, typing away.  I can't believe I did that, but I did.  I remember people asking me at the time how huge my freezer was, assuming I had some type of Mary Poppins never-ending spaced freezer.  But really, it's just your average freezer.  It's a good size, don't get me wrong, but it's not anything out of the ordinary.

By the way - TRY THESE. My new favourite snack.
Anyway this thought has been going through my head all week and I've decided I want one!  It'll help me fit ALL of my prepped meals away, and also be able to stock up on things when they're on special.  At the moment I have to limit what I stock up on and I'd love to grab say a few bags of mixed berries if they're on special so that I can save money, rather than just buying one bag because that's all I can fit.

I'd also like to do a larger meal prep, maybe to give me meals to see me through one month.  

Let me rephrase that.  

I am planning to do a larger meal prep, maybe to give me meals to see me through one month.  I won't like it, I will hate it soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.  But when I spend say 4 hours prepping 2 weeks of meals, it wouldn't take me much longer to double the output.  The meal prep itself, cutting ingredients etc. takes up most of the time, so while I'm at it, I may as well make more quantities. (eg. 1x 6 hour prep = 4 weeks of meals instead of 2x 4 hour preps to give me the same amount).

Also, I'd only be hatin' one day a month (having to food prep, doing pained expressions on my Snapchat) rather than twice!

Protein pancake mixture
ANYWAY.  I have literally just rambled away tonight, with no real structure to this post - just telling you my thoughts and that I'm currently working on "Operation Find The Cheapest Freezer" in the background this week.  No more freezer Jenga!

Another extra freezer benefit and one I'm excited about, is that my beloved friend Courtney told me some life changing news this week: that it's possible to freeze green smoothies!  

I know!  This is as incredible as the "you can freeze feta" discovery I had earlier this year.  The feta discovery has changed my life and I believe this will too!  I have to speak to her more about it but what I know is that she's road tested it this week, freezing (blended) green smoothies in mason jars, and it's worked.😊

I've never been a fan of putting food in jars, only because they're glass, heavy, impractically sized, and I always think things will spill out of them.  However I can't
Prepped smoothie bags
judge until I try - and if this will allow me to skip the step of making my smoothie bags and actually allow me to MAKE my breakfasts during food prep instead of prepping them and then blending them up twice a week, then I am there!

Also, coincidentally, the last 2 days my green smoothies have leaked through my lunch bag.  Just a small amount has leaked out - the seals on the bottles I use aren't the greatest.  (By the way I'm so grateful that I found that plastic insert lunch bag!)  But yes - I will be stoked not to have my lunch floating in apple-y spinach liquid anymore!

While I ramble about my kitchen, this week I'm also going to do a big pantry clean out.  I might Snapchat about that because I can't be bothered to explain it - I think I'm over typing tonight :)

Sorry for the rambling but I just wanted to say hey, let you know that I hit the 10kg
Also, I've started doing this calendar!
mark,...and apparently blab about my kitchen...

Don't get too excited, because if you've followed me for any length of time, you'll know that I've lost 10kg before...many a time.  And put it on again...many a time.  But I won't give up, so hopefully this is me on my way to being at a comfortable weight again.

Next step is to start to reintegrate exercise again....but that is a story for a whole other blog post.😊

Sorry about the kitchen talk, chat later,
Love Kate xoxo

P.S. A milestone last week that I can't skip over - on the 1st March it was exactly 5 years since I quit smoking, and 1 year since I stopped drinking Diet Coke!

Wednesday, 22 February 2017

Bingeing, breathing and bouncing back

Hi hi!

It's Weigh in Wednesday today, and I'm down 1.8kg :)  So 7.8kg down in two weeks - woo!

I had a couple of nights of binges this week - both Sunday and Monday nights - so I'm happy I was able to still pull that off.  It's not luck, I think it's just biological, and part of it is that my body is still in shock as it's only Week 2.  Meaning yes, I ate crap for two nights plus my usual Saturday, but overall, because I've stuck to my planned meals the rest of the week, it's still better than I was eating a couple of weeks ago.  Whatever the reason, I'm very pleased with it!

Speaking of the binges, I Snapped about it all last night so I won't retell the story here.  But if you're interested in how I dealt with it and moved on, I'll be putting my Snap stories on my YouTube channel ...soon...when I get the chance.  I mentioned ages ago that I was going to do this, and I'm still going to - I've been saving all of my stories on my iPhone!  But I didn't realise that the way I was splicing and uploading them was really poor quality, so I want to redo the ones I already put up, and then of course I have to do all of the weeks since.

But... that'll take a while so I keep putting it off.😉  But watch this space!

Anyway back to the binge - the really cool thing is, I bounced back from it so quickly -
Immediate post binge Snap
Sunday night: binge, Monday night: binge -------- Tuesday and Wednesday (today): no binge.  I don't think I've bounced back that quickly before.  I usually allow it to linger for an average of 7 weeks.😉  It'll happen again, but if the bouncing back time is reducing, then I'm definitely moving in the right direction.

I had another little win tonight, I went out for a quick sushi train dinner with a friend.  It's my favourite sushi place and I've been quite addicted to going there over the last few months.  I've been going there for years, but I realised that the amount of times I've dropped in to get takeaway recently was getting a little epic when I went in and they recognised me and knew that I wanted takeaway.  So embarrassing....!  I've had that happen at so many food places over the years.  Once it was a sandwich shop, and the owner would start making my favourite sandwich when he saw me walking down the street - I went there that often.

Anyway, tonight I managed to hide behind my sunglasses and they didn't recognise me haha - which was helpful, seeing as we were dining in.

My usual 'sushi train plate' quota when I'm dining in is 5 plates.  I always order the
3 plates
same thing.  But tonight, I ate just 3!  It wasn't planned and I didn't overthink it, but I just tried 3, felt ok, and naturally chose not to have any more.  Such a tiny thing, but a step in the right direction.

Also as I type this, it's almost 10pm and it just occurred to me that I was supposed to prep my green smoothies for the next few days, tonight, as I had my last one this morning (the ingredients are prepped in the freezer - I just blend them up 3 or 4 days at a time to keep them fresh.

My first thought was "I don't waaaaaaaaant to."  It's not that late, but it wasn't on my list of things I planned to do tonight (well it was, I just forgot).

Post binge Snap
But in the next breath (thought), I told myself off and told myself to go and do it - it won't take long, and then I'll have everything ready to go for the second half of the week.

Food prepping is my saviour - I knew it was for weight loss, but I'm realising it's also just so helpful for convenience, meaning I don't have to think - it's just there.  I had a really overwhelmed day today - a mixture of things, but including some more bad news (seriously - can February be over already?  If you follow my Snaps you'll know some of it).

Anyway, apart from my food being prepped helping me, I'm trying out a new relaxation thing tonight to keep me centered and keep things in perspective, and it's working.  I'm drafting another blog post about relaxation etc. so I'll save the detail for then, but I just wanted to share that I've found some good tools recently.  And of course, breathing. :)

Slowly but surely, baby steps, one day at a time, all of those things...just gotta keep going, the best that I can.🙂

Sunday, 19 February 2017

Sunday night check in

11 days later and I'm still going strong 😊

When I say 'strong', I haven't given up, I haven't binged and I've mostly stuck to plan.

And, following on from my previous post, I could really have named this post "How to lose 6kg in 1 week"...because I did! 

Obviously it was my body's result of utter shock of me not eating absolute crap 100% of the time!  First week weigh-ins are always awesome, but I think this one is my biggest weight loss in one week, ever.  I think I lost 6.3kg one week a couple of years ago - maybe - but otherwise this has been my biggest.  And it was exactly 6.0kg😊

It hasn't been a perfect 11 days, but when is a weight loss journey perfect?

I shared my daily ups and downs on Snapchat and Instagram stories, but basically to summarise for my blog, I just had chocolate on two nights and enjoyed my calorie free days on each Saturday I've had.  Other than that I've pretty much stuck to my cals.

I haven't done any exercise yet, for a few reasons I'll chat about in a later post, but that will come. One step at a time.

I did a 4 hour food prep last Monday night where I made enough breakfasts, lunches and dinners to last me for approximately 2 weeks.  Each night I've packed my lunch

Last weeks food prep

Last weeks food prep

Last weeks food prep
bag for the next day and doing this has, as always, been a saviour.  It'd be so easy to slip up without doing this.

My lunches
My calorie free days are awesome in the sense they help me not to feel deprived - I can have what I want - just on Saturdays.  And boy, have I gone to town.  They've been hard to come off on each Sunday, as I want to continue them, but so far I've jumped back each week.

The amount of crap I've eaten on both Saturdays won't do me any favours further down the track, once the weight loss slows down or plateaus.  I'm sure I'll have to scale it back at some stage, but for now it's helping me - and I need all the help I can get.

Being down 6kg so quickly (by the scales anyway - I'm sure a couple of the kg's were just water weight) is definitely encouragement to keep it up.  I'll check in after Wednesday's weigh in and let you know how I go.  In the meantime I'll keep chatting about the daily hits and misses on my other social media.

For now, I just wanted to let you know how I'm going, on Attempt #189354.

Love Kate xxoo


Thursday, 9 February 2017

How to put on 10kg in 4 weeks

Despite the instructional sounding title of this blog post, it's probably going to be very short.  ("A short blog post" Kate said....)

But...!  I am serious.  Because the answer to how to put on 10kg in 4 weeks is very simple:

You binge eat a lot of crap, day in day out, and don't move your body.

There you go folks!

The end.

But it's not the end - because, as I'm slightly known as the girl who will never give up, that's still the current situation, and always will be.  My little foray AKA Attempt #341189 that I started at the end of October was going well.  If you follow me on Instagram, Facebook and all the rest, you would have seen my little Post-It notes going strong.  Every Wednesday I posted how I was tracking:

That was up to early January.  Up until then I'd managed to hold onto that 10kg-ish lost for a few weeks.  I was hovering... I wasn't losing, but I was maintaining - which was progress for me.

But early January I just went nutso.  January 1st is supposed to be the day we're all 'perfect' from, isn't it??😉

Aside from the fact that there's no such thing as perfection, I also had a family emergency on New Years Eve that threw me way more than I was expecting - it took me about a week to recover - and it wasn't even about me.  On either side of that, in mid December and twice in mid January, I had three horrible experiences that sent me spinning.  Really, it's not much to expand on - it's just stuff that each and every one of us face every day - that thing called 'life'.  But with so many hard moments smooshed so closely, as well as the heightened emotions of Christmas and my January birthday, I really struggled to keep up even a 'Kate smile' for most of January.

Anyway - that kind of explains the month, but back to the 11th Jan....that day I just couldn't face the scales.  I'm not someone who lets the scales affect me emotionally.  I use them as a tracking tool because I'm obsessed with numbers, planning and goals - but 99% of the time, they don't dictate how I feel.

But that 1% occasionally pops up, and that's how I felt this day.  I decided that they would do my mindset actual detriment rather than simply recording digits, so there was no point in checking them.  (I still took a photo of the scales without looking, so that I could still keep my tracking up to date, because I'm slightly OCD like that.)

So instead, I posted this:

Cute - if it was a once off.

But, the next 2 Wednesday's...there were no Post-It notes on my social media.  I didn't explain their absence, and for any faithful followers, I of course didn't need to - their pure omission explained it all.

I still weighed and recorded (and checked my weight from that emo day), but while I wasn't sharing my weigh ins, I was essentially sitting back and watching my body inflate as I shoved food down my throat with well rehearsed vigour.

I just checked my previous post and yeah - basically I've continued that type of meal
Regular dinner shot on my Camera Roll cross buns lathered with margarine for breakfast.  Fish and chips for lunch (no salad + extra chips).  Takeaway dinner every night: Dominos, KFC, sushi, the local RSL or the Thai restaurant across the road...  Some nights I wouldn't have takeaway though!  On those nights I'd have 2 more dripping-with-butter hot cross buns, followed by 3 ice blocks.  So it wasn't all bad. #yesimbeingsarcastic

In between those staple 'meals'😑, I'd litter my diet with half a tub of ice cream in one sitting - more ice blocks - (I'd even suck one down before my hot cross bun breakfasts some days) - chocolate bars - packets of chips - jam drop biscuits - those Malteser bunnies - frozen Cokes and soft serve cones... and did you know that Easter eggs are currently available to buy?  I do...

This food intake is my norm, when I'm not focusing on my diet (and by 'diet' I mean 'dietary intake', not 'diet to lose weight').  It has been since I was 16 years old.  I've made it no secret that I've struggled with eating disorders and I believe I always will.  (That's not me being pessimistic, it's me coming to peace with it, releasing the pressure of years of agony and realising that I can instead learn to manage it.  But that's a whole other blog post (that I've already written!)) 😊

So yep - I'm definitely no stranger to this kind of eating.  (I just happen to be being a little more explicit in my public descriptions lately...eeek!)

And it becomes quite hard to hide - well it does if you don't want to be embarrassed.  There was one day last week where I just failed with the hiding from morning till night.

I have many 'hiding food in public' techniques - I should write a blog post about that one day...  But anyway - my 'hot cross buns lathered in margarine technique' is to cut them in half, and place them into a non see-through Tupperware container that will become your plate as well.  Put them in the microwave, hopefully before the kitchen gets busy, and get your margarine ready and as hidden as possible.

Once the kitchen is clear and the buns are warm, hunch over the Tupperware container, pouring margarine onto one half at a time, using the lid as a plate.  Quickly shove the margarine dripping half back into the container, and get out the next half, and repeat.

Secure the lid back on so that the smell of yummy warm hot cross buns doesn't waft too far and make more heads turn than absolutely necessary.

I won't go on, but you get the idea.

The other day though, I miscalculated the busyness of the kitchen or wasn't using my peripheral vision to it's full capacity, and mid 'hiding hot cross buns', a girl came in to put something in the fridge.  This girl, of course, is a gym junkie and works her backside off every day.  

Just as she opened the fridge, I accidentally dropped literal margarine 'globules' onto the kitchen bench, instead of onto my hot cross bun that I was attempting to hide.

'Globules' is the only way I can describe it - it wasn't like I dropped the knife and smeared a bit of marg on the table top.  No - this was margarine that I could pick up.

I was going to describe the whole day, but you get the picture when it started with picking up margarine globules as a fitness lover put her protein shake into the fridge right beside me...
I got given a birthday present in this bag💝

Anyway somehow over the last week and a half I managed to pull myself together and organise to get my shit together!  Starting today.

I said to a fellow weight loss friend just tonight, that I'm sure people read my blog or social media posts, shake their heads and think "here she goes again" - as I'm forever falling and standing back up.

But how else do babies learn to walk...smokers manage to quit...job seekers get employed...any of us master anything...they/we get back up again, no matter how many falls, fails or knock backs.  Otherwise we'd never achieve anything.
I weighed myself today and I've literally put on every single gram of that weight that I had been losing since the end of October.  Plus 400grams.

That means I have literally put on 10.5kg in the last 4 weeks.  Steller effort there, Kate.

So that's how it's done.

But we always have the chance to get back on the right path... So, back to this morning.

I screwed up before I'd even gotten out of bed today - I had a bit of reflux before my alarm went off for my grand return to boot camp... it was only reflux, but it was enough that I grabbed my sick bowl from under my bed because I thought I was going to throw up.

When the alarm went off, I stood up, snoozed it for an hour, and blonde-ly lay back down and tried to decide whether I should still go.  I promptly fell back asleep, and woke up an hour later, at 6am, as boot camp was kicking off, a 25min drive away...

My food prep last night
As much as I was really down on myself for that (because I realised that the reflux was most likely an overdose of sugar, from me gorging on my endless last supper last night before starting afresh today - #stupid), I don't have any exercise expectations for the first couple of weeks.

I intend to go to boot camp next week, and I've tricked myself into going to parkrun this weekend - but other than that, anything extra is a bonus.  My injuries etc. are so rife that I'm just not able to do much anyway.  But - start small....

What I can control, though, is my food - which was on point today.

It's Day 1 (for the 600th time), but I got through it and did myself proud.  Day 1 sux, but we all have to take that first step, say no to that cigarette for the first time, and apply for that first job, in order to eventually succeed, in whatever we're trying to do. :)

On a completely different note, just because it's 8th February as I type this; this is me exactly 3 years ago today:

8 February 2014

I'm going to try to use myself as inspiration. xx