Ahhhhh hello :)
My name is Kate/Coco and I write this blog. You may however forget this...because lately it’s been so long in between blog posts!
Things are ramping up for me with theatre and I barely have any spare time at the moment…………………………………………….................. and while this is true, it's a bullshit excuse as to why I haven't been blogging very much.
Was it a 40kg mark thing? Half way thing? 1 year fitversary thing? MY thing? If I could just figure out what the thing was, I would be able to stop it, you see. I needed to figure out the Why
before I could Stop. I used some tools to help me work this out: a lot of chocolate, chips, takeaway, ice cream, lollies...you name it, I shovelled it. It was Bingefest 2013+. That quote that says 'Dance like nobody's watching'? Well, I 'Ate like nobody was watching.' It was quite disgusting. And it went on for a while. Hand in hand with my stopping training.
|I fit into this shirt I bought years ago this week|
I started the training back up again but the food thing set back in. For a whole 2 weeks of this round. Two wasted weeks, two bingefest weeks. Why Why Why Why do I do this to myself, ALL the time?
I had a massive D&M with my beautiful trainer and I committed. I started to feel really blessed that I have so much support around me. I know I’m lucky with that. A few people in particular really believe in me…I feel so overwhelmed that they do…it’s amazing how much it helps when you have someone that does.
I got busy planning and preparing. I did a little Operation Organised with my nutrition.
Mondays pile had all of my Monday meals and snacks ready to be picked out in the morning. Everything was portioned out and bagged up. Right down to bagging 20g of spinach leaves & 3 tomato slices in a little freezer bag to add to a particular meal. And taking an egg out of the carton to put with the pile. Everything was set. I took anal to a new I’m out of the house most days from 5am to 10pm so it’s been great just to have it all done and be ready to go each day.
I started to pay more attention to what I was eating. I was getting bored and starting to look elsewhere for food so I started concentrating on making my meals look colourful and appetising. I took a lot of photos and Instagrammed them (some of them are on this post). I remembered how important it was to really love what you are eating. I am enjoying my food. You want to do everything possible to not feel deprived.
I kept pushing it at boot camp after my little hiatus. It has been hard. But I’m so happy to say that most of my fitness has already returned. I did lose it – but it wasn’t too far away :)
Yes it would be easier to go back to where I used to be. If easy means a sad life... My trainer taught me that you either do this or you don't do this. It's that simple.
I didn’t make a big deal of announcing that I was recommitting because frankly there’s no point. I've said it before, who would believe me? And maybe I'll stuff up and fix myself again, and that's ok. The thing is, the proof is in the actioning, not the promise. And besides, I know that ‘thing’ is in my blood and that’s all I need to know.
So back to it, and 4.3kg down this week. Moving on. It’s not about what’s happened; it’s about what you do next.
And thanks to Google, Bill Cosby, my trainer and the ‘C’ word, what I do next will be pretty damn awesome, just watch this space. No more “around 40.”