A little bit long time, no speak! I've been blogging in my head, and taking pictures along the way, but to actually sit down and type and press "Publish", I haven't quite gotten there.
Before I go on, I need to share something that's not entirely weight loss related, but it is to do with food! This post was going to be a general update, but to be honest I can't think of anything other than the fact that I am frigging HANGRY right now.
I'm not being silly and not eating by choice. Tomorrow I have to have a delightful
This Colonoscopy prep is the absolute universal proof reason why I could never do a diet that didn't include actual real life FOOD. Aside from the fact that I'm not a shakes / tablet / powder etc diet person myself anyway, I just couldn't do it, even if I thought it was a great way to do things. It's why my juice diet I attempted 4 years ago didn't make it past the lunch time of Day 1. I am a person who needs actual food.
So, as you can imagine, I am not enjoying this prep process and my Easter has not been one of sitting around a table spread with culinary delights.
From Good Friday to Easter Sunday, I was on a strict low fibre diet, able to choose from a list of certain foods. To be fair, the list was actually quite kind - there was a fair bit of choice.
But oh no, of course all I could think of, crave and salivate over, were the foods that I wasn't allowed to have. Good Friday, Day 1, was the worst. I didn't cope well. I was agitated and annoyed and felt so deprived it wasn't funny. I wanted everything I couldn't have and my language when talking to friends was as pleasant as it is when I'm road raged.
Saturday and Sunday I was a lot more accepting and mature about it and just took it (mostly) on the chin.
|I took so many photos of me drinking mineral water|
I'm trying not to swear - I've done enough of that on texts and snaps to friends across the last 4 days. This feels torturous.
I know I sound like the first person who's ever had to prep for a procedure, but when you're as hangry as I am, you don't care. :) Seriously the way I am carrying on in my head and my swearing text messages, you'd think I hadn't eaten for weeks.
I'm currently drinking the prep stuff so am trying to get this blog post out of the way before I am attached to my ensuite for the rest of the night. I've turned my TV around to face the bathroom. What a fun Monday night I have planned!
Now that I've shared the load of my hangriness to anyone who'll listen (read), I now feel I can continue on.
|Ignore my desk calendar - I am lazy. This was March.|
I did well the first week, then fell over like I usually do. It's the same old story, I don't need to explain it.
I was doing really well, even though I got so busy. I was walking to my car eating yoghurt, eating lunch in meetings, still sticking to my plan no matter how hectic things were. But one thing snuck in - but that was ok, because for the rest of the day I made good choices. But then the next thing snuck in, then the next, then before I know it, it's a free for all.
You know, for someone who falls over so much and has next to none self confidence or self esteem, I have an uncanny amount of belief in me reaching my goals.
A friend who's on a similar journey asked me recently if I ever got scared that I wouldn't make it (weight loss journey wise). With total and utter conviction, I responded, no. There is not one doubt in my mind that I won't make it. I know I will. I just happen to also like torturing myself in the process, by dragging it out something silly!
|One of my very few boot camp seshs|
I lost 4.1kg in the first week of March. Week 2, I put on 1.8kg. Week 3, I put on 1.2kg. So hey, I still lost 1.1kg this month! That is something.
After this hangry causing, torturous no food long weekend is over (approx. 18 hours to go...), I'll enjoy the concept of eating again, and get myself back on the wagon.
On a brighter note, as of today I am now 4 weeks Diet Coke free! So proud of myself! I know that I've kicked the habit. I sound very sure of myself, but I know it. I continue to liken it to quitting smoking. Once I'd made up my mind, I just did it. 4 weeks ago I made the choice to no longer drinking Diet Coke, and that was that. I know that I don't drink it anymore.
I won't lie though - the first few days were a bit hard. I had a slight headache for just 3 days, and probably the first week I had to keep reminding myself that I don't drink it anymore. Habitually there were reminders everywhere. The first one of the day...driving...the vending machine at work...lunches and 'coffees' out... various scenarios that kept popping up that kept me practicing getting used to the fact, that I don't
|The month of eating on the run - this was in a lift|
Even now when I go to the grocery shops, it feels strange not putting 2 cartons in my trolley, or getting excited when it's on special. In fact I was so used to my habit, that I bought 1 carton too many, the week before I quit. I had a carton of 30 cans sitting idle in my pantry - I'd just habitually stocked myself up, completely not thinking that I wouldn't need to do so anymore. My parents were pleased with their free carton I delivered to them! It goes some small way in paying them back for all of the Diet Coke's they've supplied me with over the years.
After about a week of giving up, the habits got a bit easier. That was about the time I probably stopped craving it, too. Thinking back on the process, just 4 weeks later, it really was quite easy. I put the 'ease' down to me cutting down from the 1st of January. I think it would be quite a different story if I'd cut it out cold turkey, like my last attempt. Going from 2-3 a day down to 0, is a lot easier than 6-9 a day to 0 overnight!
|I'm proud with every bottle!|
Plain mineral and sparkling water has been my saviour though. It's definitely "my" new drink. I've been having it first up each morning as my first Diet Coke of the day was always my favourite. I don't think I'll need it as regularly as I've been having it, ongoing, but I'll just see how I go. It feels similar to how after I quit smoking, I continued to take "cigarette" breaks for a week or so. I didn't smoke when I went on them, but I was so used to taking those regular breaks that it felt unnatural not to do so after I quit. By walking outside for 10min. a few times a day it took away the edge for the first little while, and then I stopped needing to do so.
I've hardly had any mineral / sparkling water compared to the amount of Diet Coke I used to have, but it's been a nice little replacement every now and again when I feel the need for something other than water.
|My 1st time in a bar post no more DC. Soda water!|
My decision was to stop drinking Diet Coke, but I also meant any soft drink and diet drinks as well. Because it would be very easy just to switch from Diet Coke to even diet flavoured mineral water, which I've done before. My emotional addiction was to Diet Coke, so as long as I could stay away from that, I'd be happy, but I still didn't plan on having any other soft drink, either.
In saying that --- I ended up having soft drink twice this month. I'm not worried about it, as both times were definitely not Diet Coke replacements, or satisfying a craving or anything like that.
The first time was at a friends house. She'd very sweetly gone to the trouble of buying me mineral water for our catch up. She'd bought flavoured mineral water, but the one I opened was diet soft drink. It was accidental and it wasn't even a regular soft drink brand; it was just orange drink. I'd opened the bottle so I went ahead and drank it: I felt a little guilty but just tried to enjoy the one glass.
The second time was today: I went and bought myself a bottle of lemonade to use as a
|Medicinal lemonade today|
I *almost* had Coke another day, about a week after "D(C) Day". I had a little (unrelated) fainting episode :( while I was at work. My boss helped me out and while I was partially out to it, I heard him asking if he should get me some Coke (sugar). I couldn't speak, but in my head I was screaming to myself "no! no! I only quit Diet Coke last week!" Lol of all the times for someone to feed me Coke / Diet Coke when it was really not up to me, it had to be just a week after quitting, when I was still a bit DC vulnerable. :) Fortunately he made me a Milo instead. :)
|I found these through the avo shortage! Really good!|
My exercise this month has been nondescript. I've been to boot camp on average once a week (I usually go 3 times a week), and I've been doing nothing else exercise wise. Even my "reach 50 parkruns in 2016" goal hasn't been getting me out there.
I came up with what I thought was a great way to get me out of bed for Saturday morning parkruns. While during the week I have a trainer and friends who are expecting me at boot camp, on Saturdays I don't always meet friends to parkrun, so it's all too easy to turn over and go back to sleep.
So I started organising breaky with friends on Saturday mornings, at around 8:30am, which gave me enough time to complete parkrun and turn up for a catch up and some breaky. I thought if I had to get up and go and meet a friend for breakfast, then I'd get up and do parkrun beforehand.
What I didn't forsee, is that it's just as easy to turn over and go back to sleep at 5:30am/6am
|Airport lounge - better choices|
I'm the type of person who once I'm on a roll, I get out there and do it all. So I know once I really get myself into it, there won't be any stopping me.
All I can do is keep trying.
After I eat something tomorrow.
Happy Easter xx