That's been my struggle these past few days! I'm going ok with the food, exercise etc.: that's actually on track. But I was thrown a curve ball on Thursday when I came to the realisation that I don't have a 'healthy coping vice' to placate life's (non weight related) downs.
I'm making it sound like this is the first time I've had a bad day while trying to lose weight. Obviously not the case. So I don't know why this week was so damn hard to deal with!
It was a really tough week. And for some reason I felt the need to have a 'thing' to 'fix' it. Maybe it's because I've been so off track for the past year that my commitment just wasn't there - so it was a lot easier to succumb when the going got tough. But now I've finally picked myself up and am really, really focused and don't want to fall down?
|Very fresh dinner tonight (and I used my fresh sweet basil!)|
And bacon chips. And cookie dough ice cream, and the rest.
But I didn't let myself. As painful as it is, I've been pushing through. Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been perfect. Thursday nights dinner was not nutritious in the slightest. But I stuck to my calorie limit. I very rarely eat something bad and say it's ok because I was within my calories....but on this occasion I let myself. Other than that, and changing one meal on my plan tonight (to something equally as healthy!), I've been sticking extremely hard and fast to my food plan.
This morning I meant to go to parkrun...but I bailed on myself at 5:30am :( I was really disappointed in myself for doing that. Up till this morning, I've been so proud that I have
|Haven't bailed on boot camp. (Although I had 2 comments I need to stop hiding at the back in pics)|
In saying that, again, weekend training was like pulling teeth, because I have to 100% motivate myself. During the week I have routine with exercising around work, and group training ie. people expecting me to be there. But come Saturday and Sunday, I have to make more of an effort to a) fit it in, and b) get it done. Tomorrow I have some interesting, planned stuff, so I should be ok. And I've arranged to meet a friend at parkrun next Saturday, to make sure I don't repeat today and turn the alarm clock off instead. I'm going to have to really work on the weekend exercise thing.
So even though it's been so hard to stick to, I am still on track. I still haven't skipped out on a day of my calorie goals 'in' (food) and 'out' (exercise). My polka dot dress photos this weekend (pic below and on my polka dot dress page) have pepped me up and made me realise that this is working, and that I need to just keep going and battling through, regardless of how things are.
My exercise selfies from this week are very non smiling and quite depressing to look at. I
|Real life exercise selfie ;)|
|4 weeks progress - made me so happy!|