- Get married / engaged / find a long term partner / find a partner
- Have babies
- Buy a house
- Lose 50kg
- And invent Post-It notes!
For me, it’s about facing up and being starkly reminded of what I’m still working on. And to add an extra layer, just for fun, I’m someone who is currently uncomfortably obese, who wasn’t obese in Year 12, and as a result, have near crippling social anxiety.
- It was going to be fairly difficult to get married when I don’t have a boyfriend,
- There wasn’t enough time to get and be pregnant for long enough to be able to both know and safely announce it within 4 weeks,
- My bank balance was not at a house deposit stage,
- It was impossible to lose 50kg without some serious limb chopping,
- And I was still no closer to working out that you could raise the viscosity of your resin to develop Post-It glue.
|Snapchat this week: why are everyone staring?|
|Me on the right, playing a pregnant woman in 2008|
|In labour onstage|
|Another one of my plays, we did the 'Romy and Michele dance' :)|
I am definitely thinking more positively about it than I have for the past 6 months, that's for sure. That's not to mention I won't need my girlfriends and alcohol and to keep my head held high tomorrow night. But I'm not in a total freak out mode. Maybe not so coincedantally, my self esteem has been at an all time low lately. It's also been a big week and I've been upset, extremely stressed and anxious about other things, so hopefully I can contain my emotions and just have a fun night out. The last thing I need is to be the drunk crying girl from Year 12 days haha!
As I type this from the comfort of my bed, in my pyjamas, in my safe space, a whole day
What's more brave than accepting and being yourself?
My personal list is just that, and it will be done in my personal time. (See my quote I put up on Instagram this week, to the left?) We all have one. Or sixty-two.
Also, not that comparisons are at all useful and I've established that it's not about sizing each other up, but if I'm being cheeky, I have to share that I'm a year younger than everyone in our grade. It sucked when they were all turning 17 (license) and 18 (clubbing), but as we get older it now always works in my favour, and I remind them of that all the time haha. So my point being, if I am getting technical, really, I have another year to catch up.) ;)
And, while I may not have invented Post-It notes, if all else fails, I definitely own a mobile phone, if anyone needs to make a call. :)
Wish me luck!
P.S. I loved this play and the photos made me smile so much tonight that it was hard to choose, so here's a few more, predominately for my own viewing pleasure ;)