So here
we are, Part 2 of my epic story of a weekend. For Part 1, read my last post.
However, if you just wanna hear an overview of the actual main events, then this is the one to read!
So we're up to the morning I flew out. I flew to Melbourne with my gorgeous friend Mel, and waiting for us, from earlier flights, were Donna, Julie and Alison. NOW it felt like a finale weekend! Seeing 12WBT friends at random airports across Australia is the most special start to any finale/festival weekend.
On the way into the city, I looked up, and I felt my eyes sparkle. It was like I was seeing Disneyland. There, outside the bus window, was this giant structure.
The MCG.
I'd seen it before, (and remember I am not a sports person!) so I usually would not care one
iota, but because of the MCG Dream, it took on a whole new
meaning.
Look at it...glistening in the sun, waiting for me to run...by it.
My voice almost cracking, I said to Donna who was sitting next to me: "Donna, look, there it is. The MCG....."
As I looked up in wonderment and awe, Donna replied kindly:
"Oh, umm, that's actually Etihad Stadium."
Oh, ok. Moment over. LOL.
After checking into our hotels and a hangry satisfying lunch at South Gate, we went to pick up our race packs for Sunday's runs.
I was getting so nervous about the half, that I actually made myself sick. I don't know why I was such a mess. I'd love to say it was because there was so much personally riding on the run, and it was in a city I'd never run in before, but I actually think it was just me, losing belief in myself and my running capability. Hmm something to explore another day...
I kept teasing myself with the knowledge that I was allowed to downgrade to the 10km
when picking up my race pack. But never one to take the easy road, I kept
with my plan of a year, and picked up my planned half pack. The 6 hour cut off
was making me feel a lot more calm. (I do it in 3, but the pressure of a time
limit always makes me anxious and sets my breathing off track!)
There was no backing out now.
We went along to the Friday night drinks, catching up with other 12 weekers. It was a really lovely night - apart from the random woman who grabbed my arm as I was walking to drinks! What the??
And then Saturday was here - FESTIVAL DAY!
Before we could walk inside the pavilion and start the festivities though, I had my second 'shaken up' moment of the weekend, in the cab ride from
the city to the showgrounds, where the festival was being held. Not the nicest
start to the day! Actually making it to the showgrounds was an ordeal, which
resulted in a two way threat of having the police called. When things escalated
beyond our control, I ordered us both (Donna and I) out of the cab; we grabbed the closest
12WBT'er we could find (thank you Liz Christie!!) as some form of protection /
comfort and we went and hid behind a pavilion until he drove away. Far out!
Melbourne, I like cuddles and calm! Why you scare me so?
Scary cabbies out of the picture, I had a great day. It's no major secret that I haven't been feeling great about myself lately, my self confidence levels making me a little quiet. But
somewhere in between heart-on-my-sleeve chats
with Larah, Vicki, Sue and Joady, seeing my 12WBT friends again and the general
inspiration from the activities of the day, I had a ball. Thank you to my
friends who made it special, the staff who made everything ok, and the kind
12WBT'ers who said hello, or told me that I'm on your fridge! It's kind of
impossible not to have a great time at a festival.
My day started with the admins breaky and volunteer induction. I volunteered in the Mindset Zone for the morning sessions, so I absorbed as much inspiration as I could from there. Then a lovely meet and greet with
Mishy and a quick but
yummy lunch, followed by cheering on my friends in the One Active fashion
parade. Then straight into my afternoon sessions (all mindset for this blonde
duck!), and I finally managed to have a super quick look at the sponsor
exhibitors. The day always goes so fast!
Then, group workout time!
I always do the group workout. There's never a question. Even in Sydney 2012, when I had my moon boot on, I did it. (I was on the side, barely bopping up and down, but I partook). I was always going to do this one, too.
But as the day went on, I started thinking that maybe I wouldn't. I told myself it was because
I was trying to preserve my energy for the half marathon in the
morning, but it was really my stupid beated confidence.
I told myself I would do it, but at 50% effort and intensity. You know, for preserving all that energy and stuff. So I started at the back, on the sidelines.
By the end, I was going nuts, 110% energy, at the front. #shocker
I seriously can't help myself.
After a normal, calm, non-scary cab ride back, a shower, a carb loading dinner with friends and a late night panic when I couldn't get my new Camelbak to open to fill with water, I finally made it to bed. Tip - don't leave a stack of your running stuff in Brisbane, and don't try to figure out a new Camelbak at midnight before a half marathon.
I hadn't had a chance to think about the past weeks all consuming MCG Dream over the past 2 days. It was the festival of the Festival, and I'd had a great time, but now it was time to settle down and remember my big day that I had ahead.
I woke up, and was anything but being excited about my little run and ensuing
MCG moment. I ran to the toilet twice while trying to put my shoes on. I was
unbelievably nervous. I was suddenly insanely jealous of anyone who was able to
sleep in that morning, and all I wanted to do was to crawl back into bed, and
not run 21km in a new city.
But, it was partially the tiredness talking, and
I got myself together and left the
hotel.
The fear was still there. And I suddenly got overwhelmed about the run being interstate. It's not that I'm not confident in new places. I flew around the world when I was 9 years old without my parents, guided by my Dad's typewritten instructions. I'm fine in new cities, I can read maps, blah blah blah, things like that don't phase me. Besides, I'd been to Melbourne before.
But this was feeling different. When I'm on my way to start lines of runs in Queensland, even if I haven't been somewhere before, I have an understanding of where the address is. This mornings address meant nothing to me. And
this
entire unfamiliarity was intensely fueling my usual morning-of-race
apprehension.
I forgot about my Google maps directing me to the start line and instead followed the lycra clad, laced up people milling the streets, trying to calm myself down. They all looked like they knew where to go, they looked safe, fit, confident.
I forced myself to eat a banana. I felt sick and I was trying so hard not to cry. I half looked up, half tried to post on Instagram about how I was nervous. (Coz Insta always helps).
And then suddenly, this light appeared. LOL. But seriously, it was truly like my Fairy Godmother had worked some kind of magic with a Genie in a Bottle, and as if from nowhere, 5 metres away, had placed Julie Caplice for me to find. Julie - my friend Julie. My 12WBT buddy Julie. My someone familiar Julie. My someone from my hometown of Brisbane Julie. My supportive, wonderful, comforting and calming Julie; she was suddenly
there. I knew she was in Melbourne of course, but it was a surprise to see her in front of me because Julie wasn't even running this morning. She was just strolling with her suitcase,
trying to find a friend to meet for breakfast.
Pounce time.
"Juuuuuuulie!"
If inflections could speak, my cry out to Julie would have told a story.
I almost bowled her over. I can't hide how I'm feeling at the best of times. But this morning was out of my control.
"I am so nervous". My eyes told the story anyway, I didn't really have to tell her how I felt. She hugged me and I finally cried a bit. She was just who I needed to see. She walked with me for as long as she could. We asked each other why we do this to ourselves. I asked her why I paid money, to fly
to
a different state, to get up early in the morning, and run for 3 hours. ??
She gave me the boost of comfort I needed, and I made my way to the start line. I cheered on my 10km starter friends, (not that they saw me!) and got excited when I heard Cathy Freeman was also running this morning. I tried to prep myself. My Camelbak, although filled, was now not dispensing water. Grrrr. Fiddling with this took over some of my warm-up time, but I did the best I could.
I turned on my latest running playlist, did some final stretching, and we were off.
Apart from the MCG Dream, this was also my 50th
official running event, so it
felt even more special. And despite me not being able to count on my other
social media, this was my 7th half marathon.
Friends texts really helped. I started out easy, and took it all in. So this is what it feels like to be running in Melbourne.
I passed Flinders Street Station and smiled for the cameras. I was doing ok.
Finally, around 3km, my Camelbak finally started to work. I began thinking through my MCG Dream and what this run meant to me. I relaxed a little. I was pretty impressed with my pace, with my breathing and my
body. All relaxed, just
the way I needed it today.
Maybe this wouldn't be too bad. I was so relaxed and was pushing myself so little, that it was like I forgot that I was running. There was no pain, no anxious breathing, no tiredness. Ok, it was only about 5km in, but still.
And then.
There's always an "and then".
Runners started running towards me.
WHAT.
It was along the straight stretch of St Kilda Road. I didn't understand what was happening straight away. But basically, runners who had already done the loop, were on their way back. It's hard to work out who they were, as the leaders had already gone through alongside me, on a different path. I think these were the half marathoners, coming back. Geez, I was that
slow.
It didn't really matter who they were though, the point was, they were coming at me. As in, runners taking over the whole road, and running my way. Were they on the wrong path? Was I?? It was pretty overwhelming. I truly thought I must have gone off course. But I hadn't. There were just no barricades set up, nothing. It was pretty disappointing. I'd say that they didn't think there'd be anyone still running out by the time people started running back in? There were at least 100 people after me at this point. It didn't matter how it had happened, the fact was, there were return runners coming right at me, and I (we) were totally outnumbered by this onslaught. They took over the entire road, not realising some of us were still on the very left, running out.
The runners coming at me had to duck and weave out of my way, and stop taking over the entire road, probably ruining their pace. I started feeling guilty and jumped up to run on the
footpath. It was really embarrassing, too. I felt like this lone runner, slowlllllly running out, while what seemed like the entire rest of the race, started running in. It was humiliating.
In saying that though, 100% kudos to the runners themselves. At least maybe 4 of the top 20 runners, called out some words of encouragement to me. I only very rarely see this in Queensland runs. These guys are at the top of their game - pure focus and equal pace, and they still had the kindness to call out to me as they rushed past.
I couldn't wait to get off this stretch, and just get to the loop of Albert Park, where the course just went forward, with no runners coming the other way. I managed to
make it there, and relaxed. The next 5-7km or so doesn't need
describing. It was just my time. It was exactly what I needed - quiet time to
reflect why I was running today. It was like my own personal flashback movie to
the past two years. Remembering things, moments, just reflecting.
However, if you just wanna hear an overview of the actual main events, then this is the one to read!
So we're up to the morning I flew out. I flew to Melbourne with my gorgeous friend Mel, and waiting for us, from earlier flights, were Donna, Julie and Alison. NOW it felt like a finale weekend! Seeing 12WBT friends at random airports across Australia is the most special start to any finale/festival weekend.
On the way into the city, I looked up, and I felt my eyes sparkle. It was like I was seeing Disneyland. There, outside the bus window, was this giant structure.
The MCG.
I'd seen it before, (and remember I am not a sports person!) so I usually would not care one
Donna and I on the bus |
Look at it...glistening in the sun, waiting for me to run...by it.
My voice almost cracking, I said to Donna who was sitting next to me: "Donna, look, there it is. The MCG....."
As I looked up in wonderment and awe, Donna replied kindly:
"Oh, umm, that's actually Etihad Stadium."
Oh, ok. Moment over. LOL.
After checking into our hotels and a hangry satisfying lunch at South Gate, we went to pick up our race packs for Sunday's runs.
Friday night drinks |
I was getting so nervous about the half, that I actually made myself sick. I don't know why I was such a mess. I'd love to say it was because there was so much personally riding on the run, and it was in a city I'd never run in before, but I actually think it was just me, losing belief in myself and my running capability. Hmm something to explore another day...
I kept teasing myself with the knowledge that I was allowed to downgrade to the 10km
Pre festival drinks |
There was no backing out now.
We went along to the Friday night drinks, catching up with other 12 weekers. It was a really lovely night - apart from the random woman who grabbed my arm as I was walking to drinks! What the??
And then Saturday was here - FESTIVAL DAY!
Before we could walk inside the pavilion and start the festivities though, I had my second 'shaken up' moment of the weekend, in the cab ride from
Festival breaky! |
Scary cabbies out of the picture, I had a great day. It's no major secret that I haven't been feeling great about myself lately, my self confidence levels making me a little quiet. But
:) |
My day started with the admins breaky and volunteer induction. I volunteered in the Mindset Zone for the morning sessions, so I absorbed as much inspiration as I could from there. Then a lovely meet and greet with
Mindset lesson |
Then, group workout time!
I always do the group workout. There's never a question. Even in Sydney 2012, when I had my moon boot on, I did it. (I was on the side, barely bopping up and down, but I partook). I was always going to do this one, too.
But as the day went on, I started thinking that maybe I wouldn't. I told myself it was because
Group workout |
I told myself I would do it, but at 50% effort and intensity. You know, for preserving all that energy and stuff. So I started at the back, on the sidelines.
By the end, I was going nuts, 110% energy, at the front. #shocker
I seriously can't help myself.
So much fun - our mini group in group workout |
After a normal, calm, non-scary cab ride back, a shower, a carb loading dinner with friends and a late night panic when I couldn't get my new Camelbak to open to fill with water, I finally made it to bed. Tip - don't leave a stack of your running stuff in Brisbane, and don't try to figure out a new Camelbak at midnight before a half marathon.
I hadn't had a chance to think about the past weeks all consuming MCG Dream over the past 2 days. It was the festival of the Festival, and I'd had a great time, but now it was time to settle down and remember my big day that I had ahead.
30+ crew with Mish |
But, it was partially the tiredness talking, and
My run stuff set out |
The fear was still there. And I suddenly got overwhelmed about the run being interstate. It's not that I'm not confident in new places. I flew around the world when I was 9 years old without my parents, guided by my Dad's typewritten instructions. I'm fine in new cities, I can read maps, blah blah blah, things like that don't phase me. Besides, I'd been to Melbourne before.
But this was feeling different. When I'm on my way to start lines of runs in Queensland, even if I haven't been somewhere before, I have an understanding of where the address is. This mornings address meant nothing to me. And
I left half my Polar in Brisbane! :( |
I forgot about my Google maps directing me to the start line and instead followed the lycra clad, laced up people milling the streets, trying to calm myself down. They all looked like they knew where to go, they looked safe, fit, confident.
I forced myself to eat a banana. I felt sick and I was trying so hard not to cry. I half looked up, half tried to post on Instagram about how I was nervous. (Coz Insta always helps).
And then suddenly, this light appeared. LOL. But seriously, it was truly like my Fairy Godmother had worked some kind of magic with a Genie in a Bottle, and as if from nowhere, 5 metres away, had placed Julie Caplice for me to find. Julie - my friend Julie. My 12WBT buddy Julie. My someone familiar Julie. My someone from my hometown of Brisbane Julie. My supportive, wonderful, comforting and calming Julie; she was suddenly
there. I knew she was in Melbourne of course, but it was a surprise to see her in front of me because Julie wasn't even running this morning. She was just strolling with her suitcase,
Following the sneakered people |
Pounce time.
"Juuuuuuulie!"
If inflections could speak, my cry out to Julie would have told a story.
I almost bowled her over. I can't hide how I'm feeling at the best of times. But this morning was out of my control.
"I am so nervous". My eyes told the story anyway, I didn't really have to tell her how I felt. She hugged me and I finally cried a bit. She was just who I needed to see. She walked with me for as long as she could. We asked each other why we do this to ourselves. I asked her why I paid money, to fly
Good morning Melbourne |
She gave me the boost of comfort I needed, and I made my way to the start line. I cheered on my 10km starter friends, (not that they saw me!) and got excited when I heard Cathy Freeman was also running this morning. I tried to prep myself. My Camelbak, although filled, was now not dispensing water. Grrrr. Fiddling with this took over some of my warm-up time, but I did the best I could.
I turned on my latest running playlist, did some final stretching, and we were off.
Apart from the MCG Dream, this was also my 50th
First run in Melbourne |
Friends texts really helped. I started out easy, and took it all in. So this is what it feels like to be running in Melbourne.
I passed Flinders Street Station and smiled for the cameras. I was doing ok.
Finally, around 3km, my Camelbak finally started to work. I began thinking through my MCG Dream and what this run meant to me. I relaxed a little. I was pretty impressed with my pace, with my breathing and my
Run selfie ;) |
Maybe this wouldn't be too bad. I was so relaxed and was pushing myself so little, that it was like I forgot that I was running. There was no pain, no anxious breathing, no tiredness. Ok, it was only about 5km in, but still.
And then.
There's always an "and then".
Runners started running towards me.
WHAT.
It was along the straight stretch of St Kilda Road. I didn't understand what was happening straight away. But basically, runners who had already done the loop, were on their way back. It's hard to work out who they were, as the leaders had already gone through alongside me, on a different path. I think these were the half marathoners, coming back. Geez, I was that
slow.
It didn't really matter who they were though, the point was, they were coming at me. As in, runners taking over the whole road, and running my way. Were they on the wrong path? Was I?? It was pretty overwhelming. I truly thought I must have gone off course. But I hadn't. There were just no barricades set up, nothing. It was pretty disappointing. I'd say that they didn't think there'd be anyone still running out by the time people started running back in? There were at least 100 people after me at this point. It didn't matter how it had happened, the fact was, there were return runners coming right at me, and I (we) were totally outnumbered by this onslaught. They took over the entire road, not realising some of us were still on the very left, running out.
The runners coming at me had to duck and weave out of my way, and stop taking over the entire road, probably ruining their pace. I started feeling guilty and jumped up to run on the
footpath. It was really embarrassing, too. I felt like this lone runner, slowlllllly running out, while what seemed like the entire rest of the race, started running in. It was humiliating.
In saying that though, 100% kudos to the runners themselves. At least maybe 4 of the top 20 runners, called out some words of encouragement to me. I only very rarely see this in Queensland runs. These guys are at the top of their game - pure focus and equal pace, and they still had the kindness to call out to me as they rushed past.
I couldn't wait to get off this stretch, and just get to the loop of Albert Park, where the course just went forward, with no runners coming the other way. I managed to
LOL |
Stuff like this peps me up...thank you IG ppl! |
Dream |
But --- the cute thing is, she gets so excited, and she makes every effort to run over to me, and when she gets to me, she just stops. She's too little to understand what to do with that overexcited feeling - it's the cutest thing. She doesn't need to worry, as I of course scoop her into my arms! But I started wondering whether my banner line finish today might be like that. So much excitement, so much effort, I run towards it, here we GO GO GO!!!! ........And then when I get there, maybe nothing - no special feeling - it may not be a very dramatic moment at all.
I didn't know how I'd feel. But I knew that it didn't matter. As I was running, I realised that I already knew that it was about the process of me getting there - literally and figuratively. I
didn't need a big dramatic feeling at the finish line.
didn't need a big dramatic feeling at the finish line.
(Do other runners also think through the worlds problems when they run??) :)
The awesome lolly lady |
After the loop, I met up with the marathoners. It was kind of perfect for me. There weren't many of us half marathoners left, but the marathon had been going for an extra hour and had to do double the distance, and route wise, our paths met up for a similar return stint. I automatically felt calm, like I fit in. Not that I minded terribly, but doing the loop was kind of lonely. Meeting up with the large group of marathoners made me feel like I blended in. Unless someone really took note of the colour of bibs we were wearing, no-one would have known that I was a half marathoner running amongst mostly full marathoners. I rarely feel like I 'fit in', in events, so I relished this time, feeling calm.
I smiled at supporters on the side lines. There were a couple of people handing out lolly
snakes from an Allens packet. They weren't wearing a uniform, there was no advertisement or obvious business reason they were there. Just a kind soul knowing that a hit of sugar would be very, very appreciated by exhausted runners.
Around 14-15km, my feet started to hurt. I never get sore feet from running, but I did this day. I chose the wrong shoes for this run and boy, was I starting to realise it.
I was also starting to get that exhausted, 'I'm 3/4 of the way through a half marathon' feeling. And it sounds a bit sick, but I was actually enjoying it. I think it's because, for the first real time in an event, I let myself purposefully walk for a bit, during the Albert Park loop. It was something I wanted to try, and felt like doing at the time. It was fine, but it didn't feel right. I'm a runner, and I like to run. I don't regret it, but at the same time, I didn't love it. I
First sight of MCG mid-run. SO awesome. |
The closer we got to the MCG, the more the routes went a little more all over the place. Especially because the marathoners had another extra loop before they finished (compared to us). It started to be a bit unnerving, because I kept seeing runners on streets alongside me and across from me, and over from me, and I started worrying whether or not I was still on the right (half marathon) path.
There was one point around the 17km-ish (?) mark where I really started to imagine things and second guess myself. There seemed to be runners everywhere - and I couldn't figure
out how they got there. I did some quick calculations and couldn't work out where the marathoners extra loop came in. I hadn't seen any turn offs, and I started to panic that I could be on the marathon route. That was the last thing I wanted to do, do some extra km's! Surely the marathoners should have turned off by now? I could see my path about to curve around to the right, as if going backwards, and I was worried that this was the extra marathon loop. I shouldn't be doing that loop - but we were curving around - what if this was it??
On an anxious whim, at this point I almost crossed the street to join another path of runners, because I'd convinced myself so much that I'd gone off track. But I turned the corner, and clear as day, were some massive signs.
Full marathon and 10km LEFT
And
Half marathon RIGHT
I was actually so relieved (and can you guess, a little MCG Dream induced emotional), that I started crying a bit. Why was I worrying?? Of course the signs would be clear enough! It's
Donna made this for me for my run! So lovely. |
I kept running, and after getting to 19km, I realised it was time to get my 'finishing song' on. I like to have a good soundtrack going on in my headphones when I go over finish lines.
I have a few favourite finish line songs, and I quickly decided which one I wanted for today. This one, for my run of epic runs, had to be a good one! It took me a while to find what I wanted on my iPod, my finger going around and around the scroller. I asked myself why I don't have my favourite finishing tracks at the front of playlists, or somewhere easy to find?!
Me and the MCG :) |
It played for a while, but it wasn't grabbing me - so I changed it again.
Seriously Kate?? Just run!
I barely had looked up from my song selection, and my beautiful friend Alison appeared next to me! She was just what I needed at that point. She encouraged me along, and I tried to take it all in. This was the moment! The MCG was on my right - I was getting really close now.
But would you believe it, my soundtrack still wasn't right. I know you're screaming in your head at me- don't worry, I was doing enough of that myself. Screw the other songs, I decided that I vitally NEEDED to listen to "Stronger", by Kelly Clarkson. I estimated I had enough time to get the song up, and still have time to take in the moment before hitting the finish line.
It took me so long to scroll to the song, (it's hard to do while running!) and I also developed Runners Brain because I suddenly forgot my alphabet (?) and thought I'd gone past the song when I got to the letters 'Sto....'. Apparently 'O' comes after 'R'? I took so long mucking
Me at Jacq at the festival x |
Far out, that came a lot quicker than I thought!
I had to forget about "Stronger". It didn't matter about the music now. I threw my iPod down my top and looked up for 10 seconds before I ran through. A couple of people called my name (thank-you), and through I went.
And -------- I felt nuthin'. Haha! Thankfully I'd prepared myself for such a moment! I hadn't exactly helped the moment be full of serenity or accomplishment by spending the last 2km fixated on my bloody iPod - but anyway!
But yeah, I didn't feel anything. No elation, no relief, nothing. If anything I was just a bit surprised, as the finish line seemed to come around so quickly. I was also wondering where my friends were. I knew Donna was waiting for me, and I thought there may be a couple of other friends, but I wasn't sure. But apart from the kind
Instagram follower (!) xx and lovely man, no-one else seemed to be around for me. No Donna or anyone...strange.
Instagram follower (!) xx and lovely man, no-one else seemed to be around for me. No Donna or anyone...strange.
Oh well. I was sure I'd find them - but first I needed my medal!!!
It was a bit crazy at the finish site. It was a mass of people, with so many official 'medal holders' all over the place, all holding medals for the multiple events that were on that morning. People were going in between them, trying to find the correct medal for their own events. I joined them. I went up to the first person, but they didn't have any Half medals. I went to someone else. They didn't either - they directed me to someone else. The majority seemed to only have 5km, 10km and Full mara medals. I got a little worried -
they'd better not have packed the Half medals away, or run out of them! I wasn't that slow!
they'd better not have packed the Half medals away, or run out of them! I wasn't that slow!
I went up to the third medal holder and asked if she had a Half medal.
She looked at me and paused, and very slowly, very kindly, explained:
Volunteers and Mish |
......................................
Maybe because she said it so kindly, or maybe because I knew that it didn't matter what happened at the finish line because it's the run that counted, but I was fine. I mean, I wasn't happy! I was pretty shocked....but I took this information in my stride.
She continued: "Maybe go to the finish banner and ask one of the officials what to do."
I thanked her for this very helpful bit of information (!), and made my way back to the finish banner.
I marveled for about 5 seconds to myself, about how well I handled this. So impressive, Kate. Cool, calm and collected, taking it in my stride.
As I neared the banner though, I noticed my breathing get slightly erratic...
As I neared the banner though, I noticed my breathing get slightly erratic...
Heidi :) |
I didn't have to say anything. He looked down at my green half marathon bib, looked up at me, shook his head in amazement, and said "Wow...how did you manage to do that?" (Go off course and finish in the wrong section!)
As soon as we met eyes, I felt my bottom lip go. And as soon as he asked me that, I burst into tears.
Oh dear God, Kate. Yeah, good handling.
However, James was phenomenal. He immediately rushed in: "it's ok! Don't worry! We'll fix this! It's ok!"
SLAP BANDS! Best.thing.ever. |
He must have sisters.
He immediately left what seemed like a very important posting at the finish banner, and led me away. "Come with me - it's ok! It'll all work out!"
He was so, so lovely. James just led me through the crowd, me blubbering away like a lost child at a fair. I almost grabbed onto his arm, there were that many people, that I kept almost losing him. That, and he was my white knight, and I was beside myself.
He led me to a barricade that had a security guard manning it. A guard yelled out at me as I walked towards it.
"What are you doing? You can't go over there!"
"I'm with him! He's an official!" And I pointed at James.
We kept walking over, and we got to the barricade. James had to do some sweet talking, and yet still, a second guard yelled at me.
"You're not allowed through here!"
"You're not allowed through here!"
I almost grabbed James for real this time, but I held off. He seemed to handle tears, he may not appreciate me hugging his arm.
"I'm with him! He's helping me! I went the wrong way!"
More tears.
James pointed.
He explained to go straight ahead.
He explained to go straight ahead.
Find the road.
Turn left.
Go to the very end of the road.
"And you'll find where you're meant to be."
It was like lines from a self motivation book.
It was like lines from a self motivation book.
I very tearfully thanked James for helping me, apologising, crying, all of that. Poor, unsuspecting James was released.
And I now had to find my actual finish zone.
I couldn't believe it. I still hadn't finished.
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They were very sloooooow and taking over the whole path, not seeming to move. I WAS STILL IN THE MIDDLE OF MY EVENT! I was screaming on the inside: "Let me through, people!"
I kept going straight, and suddenly there were some stairs. I was obviously a little bit overwhelmed by the whole morning, because the stairs almost rattled me. Stairs? Stairs?? James didn't say I'd see stairs! Do I go up them to find the road? Or keep going??
Arriving in Melbourne texts :) |
I found the road. I was so relieved! I turned left, as he had said to do.
All I had to do was get to the end of this road (it was pretty long!)
It was kind of like the Julie moment from that morning. There in front of me, was my mate Dean, from work. Deano sits about 3 desks away from me at work in Brisbane - and out of the 30000 deep crowd, in Melbourne, I ran into him.
Dean was doing his first full marathon this morning. Leading up to it, and all through my run, I was excited as I thought I would probably finish before him, and then I could cheer him over the finish line, and take photos for him, and support him....I had it all worked out.
Instead, here he was. He called out - he showed me his medal - he'd done it! Gone was the idea of me being his finish line cheersquad, there was none of that. Instead, I said a quick well done, and then tearfully told him what had happened. I had been planning on being this tower of support and friendship for him that day, and instead, I was a sobbing mess and broke down on his shoulder. Augh!
He was lovely and confirmed I was going the right way. "Just down there".
I apologised and said I wanted to stay, but I was in the middle of my event still, so couldn't
stay and chat!
stay and chat!
I kept going...I got to the end of the road. I couldn't see any finish site or banner. I started wondering if my friends were wondering where I was. They told me later they were a bit concerned - most of the friends who were at GCAM with me, were here today - so they started to worry something similar had happened this time!
I looked around, and then suddenly, it all seemed to be like a scene from a movie or something. It all happened so fast.
I kept searching, and found the finish site. By now, there was hardly anyone there. All I could see though,
was the correct finish banner up ahead, and in the foreground, my beautiful supportive friend Donna, standing there with her camera, calling out encouragement.
I had to break through a barrier to get back onto my course. And as I broke through, it all hit me. The irony was definitely not lost on me. I had gone off course, but had navigated my way back to where I meant to be. It was scary and took longer than normal, but I had made it. Physically, in the run today, and metaphorically, in the last 2 years with the MCG Dream.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
No wonder I felt nothing when I went through the wrong (Marathon) section. My emotions were needed here, it seemed.
I ran ahead, and this time it felt ultimate. I don't think it could have felt more special if I had dreamt it.
I ran forward, all I could see was the banner. As I went through, I looked down, and there was a red mat that said the word "FINISH".
Over. It was done. I had gotten there.
Suddenly, some arms reached out to me. I think it was a combination of me being at the end of the last 2 years, the end of the MCG Dream, the end of the last 20min. debacle, and the end of running for 21.1km (or whatever I ended up doing!), but as soon as I realised it was someone I knew, my beautiful friend Leonie Grey, I lost it. I fell into her, and started this weird howling. I cried,
really loudly, and really deeply. I don't usually cry like that. (And, despite how many times I've described me crying this day, I don't even cry that often!) But this was full on howling. Leonie led me away from the banner, holding me up. She probably doesn't know why I was like that, but Leonie, here you go, this is the moment in words. :) I was also probably very embarrassing! Not that many people were left!
Leonie had heard another guy who went through the banner just before me say that he had done the same thing and gone off course and finished in the Marathon section, so I wasn't the only one. I had looked up a map previously but must have seen an old one as the Full and Half finished together in the one I looked at!
I calmed down really quickly, and then I was just in pain. My feet were in agony - they were so swollen and hot and I wanted to take my shoes off like nothing else, but I had to now walk for a couple of km's to get to where we were meeting friends for lunch. I won't describe how painful and slow that walk was, but I learnt a good shoes lesson that day. After a massive lunch (especially for Catherine!) and a quick shower in the hotel gym, it was off to the airport and back home.
So, all done! An awesome Festival, followed by my most meaningful run to date. Together with my most emotional finish to date!
And now, it's back to normal life. I'll update soon as to what that means for me in the weight loss world, and where I'm at, at the moment. One thing though, is I started the October round yesterday. :)
Chat soon! xx
P.S. More photos from the weekend below!
I looked around, and then suddenly, it all seemed to be like a scene from a movie or something. It all happened so fast.
I kept searching, and found the finish site. By now, there was hardly anyone there. All I could see though,
Love Erica! |
I had to break through a barrier to get back onto my course. And as I broke through, it all hit me. The irony was definitely not lost on me. I had gone off course, but had navigated my way back to where I meant to be. It was scary and took longer than normal, but I had made it. Physically, in the run today, and metaphorically, in the last 2 years with the MCG Dream.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
No wonder I felt nothing when I went through the wrong (Marathon) section. My emotions were needed here, it seemed.
I ran ahead, and this time it felt ultimate. I don't think it could have felt more special if I had dreamt it.
I ran forward, all I could see was the banner. As I went through, I looked down, and there was a red mat that said the word "FINISH".
Over. It was done. I had gotten there.
Suddenly, some arms reached out to me. I think it was a combination of me being at the end of the last 2 years, the end of the MCG Dream, the end of the last 20min. debacle, and the end of running for 21.1km (or whatever I ended up doing!), but as soon as I realised it was someone I knew, my beautiful friend Leonie Grey, I lost it. I fell into her, and started this weird howling. I cried,
really loudly, and really deeply. I don't usually cry like that. (And, despite how many times I've described me crying this day, I don't even cry that often!) But this was full on howling. Leonie led me away from the banner, holding me up. She probably doesn't know why I was like that, but Leonie, here you go, this is the moment in words. :) I was also probably very embarrassing! Not that many people were left!
Leonie had heard another guy who went through the banner just before me say that he had done the same thing and gone off course and finished in the Marathon section, so I wasn't the only one. I had looked up a map previously but must have seen an old one as the Full and Half finished together in the one I looked at!
I calmed down really quickly, and then I was just in pain. My feet were in agony - they were so swollen and hot and I wanted to take my shoes off like nothing else, but I had to now walk for a couple of km's to get to where we were meeting friends for lunch. I won't describe how painful and slow that walk was, but I learnt a good shoes lesson that day. After a massive lunch (especially for Catherine!) and a quick shower in the hotel gym, it was off to the airport and back home.
Celebratory beer |
So, all done! An awesome Festival, followed by my most meaningful run to date. Together with my most emotional finish to date!
And now, it's back to normal life. I'll update soon as to what that means for me in the weight loss world, and where I'm at, at the moment. One thing though, is I started the October round yesterday. :)
Chat soon! xx
P.S. More photos from the weekend below!
Mel and I at Brisbane airport |
Picking up our race packs photo shoot |
Goal setting! |
The festival |
With the gorgeous Michaela and Claire x |
Kym and I :) |
Best showbags ever! |
I'm in the 12WBT mag! |
Sun rising over the MCG as I walk towards it to start my run :) |
My post race support team! AKA friends...Donna, Sharon, Leonie, Mel and Alison. |
Chilling out, waiting to board our flight home |