Hello 2016

That moment when you don't blog for ....oh dear....for 3 months, to the day.  Wow.

I'm still here, and in my mind I haven't gone away, and am "blogging" ....however it has been probably my longest while in between posts. :o

I've been craving to write for weeks, but I get overwhelmed easily, and it's a case of 'the longer I leave it, the harder it is to start writing again'.  Not for any real reason, I guess it's just that I feel I have so much to catch up on, that I keep procrastinating, feeling like my first post in the while will be War and Peace v2.

I won't make this long though :)  I just realised I just have to write, SOMETHING.  I don't have to give a detailed update of the past 3 months, I just have to start writing, and as soon as I do, I'll feel I'm in the groove again.  So here we are!  I've been quiet here, but I have, as always, been fairly regularly active on my other social media.  I now have Snapchat!  I have recently become obsessed with people's Stories, and so I've joined myself.  My handle is the same as all of my other ones:

Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, 12WBT, Tumblr, YouTube and now Snapchat, are all:

@cocogirlbutter
 

Sorry to those who have added me so far, I know my Snapping isn't too exciting or regular yet - but I will get there - it's just been a blah couple of weeks and I don't feel I have anything exciting to show you. xx

So as promised, I won't make this a huge post.  In a nutshell, the last few months have been pretty tough, and as a result I haven't made much headway with my weight loss.  I've been trying - that I have.  But I've been falling very regularly.  Then I pick myself up again.  My usual routine.  #urgh  I'm not giving up though!

I've had a few health issues going on, including 1 big scare that went from about the time of

Biopsy #4

my previous post, to Christmas Eve.  That's one big reason I didn't blog much.  

There were many, many appointments for this, including 4 fairly traumatic biopsies, but I got the all clear on Christmas Eve - that's pretty magical :)

So that scare should be all good: other issues still continue, but hey, all you can do is roll with it, huh.

I have huge dreams for 2016 and high hopes for a happy and successful year.  I know that goal achieving is an imperfect marathon, rather than a sprint, but I'm still pretty hopeless with my dates obsession, and I really wanted to do "everything right" from midnight on Jan 1 onwards.  I know how silly that sounds, but I do it every year, and probably will continue to do. :)

I planned a healthy start to my year, by doing the special New Years Day double parkrun that I'm so grateful exists.  One of my 2016 goals is to finally reach my 50th parkrun, and I reasoned that with the double on the 1st, and normal parkrun on Saturday 2nd, I would be 3 up on my 20 needed to reach it, all by Day 2!  (I've done 30 over 3 years...so very slow - I plan to do the remainder much quicker).  

So with the 3 in the first 2 days, that way I'd only have 17 to go, and that sounded so few!

I managed to do my 2 parkruns (walking), but I was a bit walking wounded on New Years Day. I ended up limping and was in so much pain, from sudden sciatica and blisters on the bottom of my feet, from my terrible shoes.  I almost threw up from swallowing the wrong way

Hiding the cold sore at NY Day parkrun

and had an (unrelated) massive panic attack for no reason.  I was sporting a HUGE gross scabby cold sore under my lip that I literally tried to hide with my hands where possible, and it was also Day 2 of TTOTM, so I was just very blah that day!  Then that night, New Years Day, I lost my wallet, which 2 days later I got back, without the $500 of rent money and my Christmas present money from my parents that I had inside.  Happy New Year!

lol.  It was pretty shit.  

I'm just being a bit dramatic by listing all the minor things that happened that day - I am very good at keeping big picture perspective, and it took me about 3 days to actually cry (very briefly) about the lost/stolen wallet.  And even then it was in response to realising there really are kind angels in this world. xo

But my point is, my first couple of weeks have by no means been perfect.  I've been emotionally eating out of control (kicked off by WalletGate), and I haven't been on a new year perfection jaunt that I naively envisaged.  But I quickly realised (remembered), that goals for the year can still come true, even if you stuff around for the first couple of weeks.  So I'm all good :)

My Operation 50 parkruns goal hasn't made any headway since New Years Day unfortunately.  Sat 2nd I was in pain with the blisters and distracted/sidelined with the wallet saga late the night before.  Sat 9th I was feeling unwell, and yesterday, Sat 16th, it was raining a bit and I was going to be taking my 3 year old niece with me, and I didn't want her out in the rain.  I'm aiming for Sat 23rd! :)  18 to go.

I'll sign off now, as my mission is complete, I just wanted to write 1 post, so I feel less overwhelmed and from now on, can just continue writing as per normal.

I can't wait to write again; my next post will be about how I ticked off my 1st of my 58 (!) goals for 2016 today, in a very unsuspected way. :)

I hope you're having a good new year so far, and that you have big dreams and hopes for the year, no matter how your first couple of weeks has panned out.  

Hello 2016: we've got this xoxo