Smashing it :/

So my good ol’ Joshua Kadison who I like to quote was right and sometimes things turn out just the way you planned. The operative word being ‘sometimes’. Coz sometimes they definitely don’t! Just like my last week. I had planned to do well and smash Week 1 (and beyond). Well smash I did, however it wasn’t Week 1 that I smashed, it was my car. :( I had a car accident on Thursday...and that definitely wasn’t in my plan.

I was driving to work, my first day back from holidays. I’d lamented to my friend just 20min. earlier that I wanted the rest of the week off. I was going back to work on a Thursday...couldn't I just have had the next 2 days off too? I was just being whingey, I do love my job. Well, be careful what you wish for. I got all the way to outside of work, and as I was exiting a roundabout, a car tried to enter the roundabout on my left without giving way to me, and I smashed into them. It was head on for me, the side of them, in a T-bone.

I was then trapped in my car for 10min.; I couldn’t open my door. I didn’t know what to do! I was in total shock. And no one came to help me! I'm still upset about that. There were a few witnesses to the actual accident, not to mention the people in the other car - and it was peak hour in Brisbane. And not one person came to check if I was ok. Pretty disappointing. Last month some friends and I were first at the scene of a minor accident and we stayed with the people for 2 hours - that's what people do isn't it? :(  (Later on a few work friends came out to help me and were amazing and my family and friends have since made up in the love stakes - but when it initially happened....not one person even came over. :(

I tried to call for help but eventually realised I could crawl out the passenger door, which I did. I was in so much shock that I didn't realise I could do this straight away. :/  I got taken to hospital just as a precaution as I was in pain and pretty dizzy.  I just had chest/breast brusing, whiplash and back pain.  The occupants of the other car were unharmed also which is good - obviously, that is the main thing!  Everyone was ok.

My boot camp medal :)

I spent 3 days lying down - I was pretty sore and shaky for a long while after.  I got my 2 days off! :/  I missed several boot camp sessions and pulled out of a 10km fun run that I had on Sunday which was really disappointing.  Most of my week's been spent in a myriad of phone calls with insurance companies and hire car companies, visits to the police and trying to track down witnesses.  I'm fortunately fully insured and I've had it confirmed that it's 100% the other drivers fault, so I should be ok.  It's still very frustrating though.  I'm waiting to hear back about my car, but I think it's going to be a write off.  My very first car. :(

And so jump forward to today, weigh in day, and I have put on 3.8kg.  I said I'd be open each week this round (whose silly idea was that??) so today I posted my gain everywhere, as I promised.  That felt great.  Not.

I've been in pain and have been grumpy, shaky, stressed and not sure what to do about some things.  I've been eating shit and I feel out of control.  I can't blame it entirely on the car accident though - I've been through worse things before and I can't fall apart in the food department each time life throws a curveball!  But I guess I have this time though.  I'm disappointed in myself for not staying strong.  I know most of my downfall this week was due to poor planning - or complete lack thereof.  I haven't finished Pre-Season...I haven't got my plans up to date...I haven't organised myself AT ALL.  No wonder I fell off the smashed wagon!

Best trainer in the world, my trainer: Margie <3 xxoo

I have no plan or idea on how to get back on track right now.  My mind has been / still is preoccupied but I know that I will make a plan and know what to do.  Not sure when that will be - for my own sake I hope that I'll get my shit together soon - and I will be sure to tell you about it when I do. :)

On a brighter note I had my boot camp dinner this week - it's a bit of an awards night and I got given the Encouragement award :)  So lovely.

Will be back soon I am sure with grandiose plans and maps of where to next.  This is just a short and sweet post to tell you of my downfall week.  I'll get back up there.  Thanks for listening :) xoxo