So today is Week 1 weigh in and a public holiday in Brisbane! Super happy with my first weigh in, especially considering this is including a certain boozy weekend in Adelaide....but
even still, I am 5.2kg down since Friday. I am now 100.5kg and I'm hoping that next week will see my break the 100kg barrier for the 2nd, and last time. I made such a big song and dance about it the first time...well here we go again ;)
I've spent most of today getting some pre-season stuff done, as well as creating a few things to help keep me accountable for the next 12 weeks. I am yet to set my big goal for the round - I am a bit stuck on that one actually. But while I sort that out, I've spent some energy on trying to set myself up for a successful round, by being more accountable.
Here's what I've been up to:
I updated my blog! All of the links are at the top of the page, but I updated:
My weekly weigh in page! I haven't kept it up to date since April - it's now all up to date including today's weight: Coco's Stats My before and after photos page! All of them should be up there now: Coco's Photos My weekly personal challenges page! Coco's Goals Operation Yellow Dress! I stopped in Week 4 last round so back onto it this round - I'll update the photos on each page each Wednesday - this time for Operation Green Dress, Operation Leather Jacket and Operation Denim Jacket: Operation Yellow Dress Also check out my Instagram (cocogirlbutter) for an Instagram only Operation Blue Work Dress :)
Here are this week's photos:
And my 'celebrating every kg page' is up to date also: Every kg On Instagram I copied this idea and uploaded this photo and will do every 4 weeks:
I'm also going to make sure I take a photo of the scales each Wednesday and upload it onto Instagram; update my weight on here, the 12WBT site, on a thread we have on our 30+ Facebook group, and various other places I try to record it.
And I reactivated my weight tracker on the forums and am going to try and visit there more often than I usually do. I think that's it! I've got other things I do too and little posse's of friends who we try to keep each other accountable and I'm just going to try to utilise them all. I have some big goals and I am hell bent on achieving them, so I am just trying to do everything in my power to help me along my way. Next blog post: my finale photos! :)
I did it! I did it! I did it! I RAN A HALF MARATHON! I really did it :)
So those of you who see me on Facebook or Instagram will know the run down of how I went. But I can't not write about it in my blog! The short version, is that I did it, baby! The slightly longer version is:
I wrote my family's names who live interstate on my arm coz they couldn't be there
That it went well :) Seriously...I smiled pretty much the whole way! There were no issues...Joshua Kadison was right and maybe this time, things will work out just the way I planned...well, they did!
I felt like throwing up from the 7km mark right through to the end - my stomach was not well, my feet were slightly sore towards the start, and the 19km mark onwards was a bit hard, but that was it. The rest was awesome! I enjoyed it...and let me tell you, I never in my craziest dreams imagined I'd be saying one day that I ENJOYED running for almost 3 hours, let alone be able to do it. But, there you go :)
I only had 2 goals. To finish it. And to run the whole way. That was all I wanted. As a secondary goal, I was sort of hoping to come in under 3 hours. Well, I did all 3! I didn't stop
At home in the morning - pretending to be nervous!
running once, and I completed it in 2:49:26. So I am very stoked.
I woke up at 3:30am, picked up friend #1 at 4:35am, friend #2 at 4:45am, and we arrived at the car park I had pre booked by 5am. We froze as we made our way to the start line, took a few photos and lined up. One of my marathon heroes, De, came to give me a hug, and she held my hand as we approached the Start banner, jogging alongside me to see me off. Seriously lovely.
She let go of my hand, I went through the banner and that was it. I had 21.1km in front of me. Usually this would be a time where I would be panicking and thinking "what on earth have I gotten myself into??" but...I didn't really. For once in my life I was so prepared for something (the run), that I just got on with it. I started at my own personal comfortable pace, remembering what friends Greg and Ruth had told me, to not go full on hard out at the start.
The Start line
We curled around the city streets as the sun rose and ran across Brisbane's Story Bridge. On the bridge I completely randomly met a girl of who we have a mutual friend, and we took a selfie together for her, and I high 5'd a couple of drunk guys who were on their way home and cheering on the runners...lol. That first 5km went by in a flash.
Arriving at Kangaroo Point, at the 7km mark, I suddenly became nauseous. My stomach turned and flipped and it remained this way until the finish line. So not pleasant :( I was so determined that I decided that it was fine: if my body needed to throw up, or anything else... (trust me, it was not nice...) I decided I would let it, but do it while running. Nothing was going to stop me.
Just after this, I was running along South Bank, nearing 8km in, and I spotted something bright pink in the distance. I immediately fixated on it (of course - pink is my middle name) - and as I got closer, I was suddenly overwhelmed. All of a sudden I saw that this pink thing was a sign -
The amazing sign
I saw that it said MY NAME - and I saw that my beautiful friend Courtney was waving it in the air! For me! Far out!
This gorgeous girl had, unbeknownst to me, gotten up hours before her own run later that morning, to come and cheer me on. With a cool pink sign! I'm so glad that I had the head space to grab my camera and film a bit of it while continuing to run. I'd seen signs for people on other runs I've done and always thought it was so lovely. And now someone had done it for me..I am still blown away. It kept me pepped up - just incredible :) Apparently people were running past before I got there and smiling and saying "I wish I was Kate Beck!" :)
Soon after that, I saw something else that was beautiful. A man who was doing the marathon left the course to approach a homeless man under a bridge and offer him money, then returned to the course. Wow. It was one of those moments that needs no words...
I kept running, I kept smiling (really, Kate?) :) and just kept going. There was a stretch that was
Half way!
a bit hard as it all of a sudden got really quiet. People (runners and spectators) seemed to disappear and it was a bit tough feeling quite alone out there but I just powered on. My "Kate's Half Marathon" iTunes playlist was extremely helpful!
Then, I ran past myself. Not me, obviously, but this girl.............she was surrounded by police on flashing light motorbikes, fully flanked by officials. Yes, she was the last runner. My heart wrenched for her - as I approached them to run past, I think I even said out loud "oh honey..." That was usually me! I knew how she felt. Yet this time I was police-less for once. I high 5'd her, that's all I could do.
Everyone had told me to be aware of the 16-18km mark as this was the renowned tough bit, where your mind battles really come to life, and you had to stay strong as you'd feel like giving up.
Do you want to know what I was thinking at this point?
Boston.
Or New York.
Yep, Boston or New York. (Marathons).
No joke.
Seriously - I was thinking this! Haha! I love my confidence - and crazy goal setting after 18km of running!
However everyone else's 16-18km tough bit came to greet me at 19km. I'd just arrived back
at the Botanical Gardens. We had to sort of run past the finish line and then do a 2km-ish loop of the gardens before actually reaching the finish line. Knowing that I was so close but not there yet was hard, and also at that point the course wasn't clearly marked and I got a bit panicky. There were heaps of spectators milling around and not many traffic cones or attentive volunteers directing us where to go. A couple of times I panicked, not sure where to run. This is NOT something you want to happen so close to the end. This was the one and only time I had to read my hand, which I had written "You've got this" on. Come on, Kate.
Moment that blew me away #2
I managed to stay on the path and kept going, as hard as it was, and then I saw (and heard) another amazing scene.
Just after I went past the 20km mark, there was Courtney and her lovely pink sign again- this time showing the other side of it, which said I had 1km to go and was nearly there :) She had hooked up with a water station full of volunteers - and they were all cheering for me, very, very loudly! I am sure I don't need to describe to you how this made me feel....! They were all screaming my name....the beautiful Courtney and her pink sign, flanked by these awesome volunteers, holding out cups of water and cheering me on like they had known me for years :)
After I ran past them (& filmed them again!) they actually started chanting my name. "Kate...Kate...Kate..." I almost broke into tears at this point. I was on the home stretch now...bringing it home. Above is the video footage I took. :)
About 50 metres from the finish line, I tried to really take in the moment. This was the moment
I had been training for, dreaming about, visualising and planning for, for 10 months.
And then, I did it. I ran through that finish line and completed my first half marathon. Just like that :) I used my last ounce of adrenalin to jump through the finish banner, with my family right beside me, cheering. :)
It was over! I couldn't wipe the smile off my face - and to be honest, a week later, still haven't :) This was not only the biggest thing I have ever done, but the biggest thing I have ever dreamed of. The fact that I dreamed it possible in the first place is big enough for me.
I was the girl who walked defiantly at the back of my school cross country, eating M&M's. I was the girl who didn't catch a train for a few years because people would see how fat I was. I was the girl who would feel like running out in front of traffic when heavily crying in clothes shops changing rooms because nothing fit and I could never find anything new to wear to a party. I was the girl who was secretly envious of my school sports age champions - because I
just wasn't an athlete. It was a label I gave myself early on and have sadly continued to honour.
People have been saying to me all week that they couldn't run a half marathon...or even a kilometre. I get that, because I couldn't either! Until I decided that I could. Therein lies the difference. You can't do it until you try to do it. And believe it. Every one of you can do it too.
Regular readers will have heard me say before, that in June last year, at 141kg, I ran for the first time. I made it 200 metres before stopping because I thought I'd collapse. And as hard as it was, I kept trying to run - mainly for fitness tests - at that stage it was not because I loved it. Each fitness test I tried to improve my running. And it happened quite quickly. Soon I was able to run for 1 kilometre straight! My friend Wendy famously said to me, on the eve of my first 5km event in September, that "if you can run for 1km, you can run for 2km."
I tested the theory out that next day and ran the whole 5km straight. From 1km to 5km, just like
Hugging my Dad at the finish line
that.
In October I watched Ben Does Life and made my half marathon goal.
In November I badly sprained my ankle on the infamous princess bush walk and was on crutches and in a moon boot, not allowed to run, until January. I kept training though, and did what I could. Because I had a goal. I brought a whole new truthful meaning to the words (moon) 'boot camp', because I kept showing up.
If you can run 5km, you can run 11km. Because that's what I did in January, directly after 2 months of no running. I just tried, my first run after 2 months of injury, and I was able to do it. It continues to blow me away how quickly running improves.
I then spent months continuing to train, losing weight, and doing as many fun run events as I could. Resolution Run, Bridge to Brisbane, Jetty 2 Jetty, parkrun, Park 2 Park, City to South,
One side of Courtney's amazing sign
Pink Fun Run, International Women's Day Fun Run, Mooloolaba Twilight Run, Brisbane Twilight Run, Colour Run etc.. If it was a running event within reasonable location, price and time proximity, I was probably there.
I did 5km, I did 10km, I did more 5km and 10km, I did 14km. I did more 10km. I pushed through the barriers of one 10km at the finish line and continued on, to make up my first 16km.
I went from choosing to drink water from the little plastic cups on fun runs because it looked cool coz they do it on TV ;) to needing to drink water from the little plastic cups because I was actually pushing myself ;)
I broke my goal down into achievable parts like the lovely Gabi suggested. You can't just wake up and do a half marathon. But you can break that huge goal down and tackle one thing at once.
I still worked on my fitness, even wearing a moon boot and not able to run
Remember, I started at being able to run for 200 metres. I broke down the 21.1km and had plans and mini goals. I spoke to people, asked advice, and read articles. I got myself a running coach for a short time. I spent unplanned money on an Osteopath when I had foot issues leading up to the run. I nurtured, respected and prioritised my goal. I dealt with the obstacles as they appeared. Two months of injury / not running and changing the event I chose to do my first half at because I didn't feel ready was not on the "Perfect Goal Road Map." For once in my life I was flexible and realistic.
And that's why I'm proud of myself. I'm proud because I worked hard at the process to get to that point. I'm proud because I realised that I've dispelled that "I wasn't an athlete at school so therefore can never be an athlete" mentality. And I'm proud that I could run non-stop for 21.1km. Coz I never thought I could. :)
This has been a huge week for me, my first half marathon, finale weekend in Adelaide (whoohoo! Blog post about that to come!), the start of Round 3, it was the 10 year birthday of my production company including 2 shows/festivals, the 1 year anniversary of me being recovered from Pulmonary Embolisms, and now I'm relaxing with my first paid holidays in 8 years. A big week of celebrations in all different areas. I'm taking today to celebrate being alive, ok, and for the stuff that I've been doing. And doing pre-season for Round 3.
People have asked me what my next big goal is. I will be doing a full marathon! Yessiree. I knew it already but made the actual decision on the weekend. But while I decide on which will be my first one, right now, my big goal is to finally get to my goal weight. I realised that if I can apply myself properly and do all of the right
With my family (& family names written on my arm!)
things and run a half, then I can apply myself and lose the rest of this weight and stop resting on my half way "I've lost 40kg" laurels...
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who encouraged me and cheered me on for last weekend. I have never before received so many Facebook posts, private messages, texts, Instagram, Twitter and blog comments, physical and in spirit cheer squads (& pink signs!) in pure support as I did last week. I felt amazing within myself, so to in addition feel like I had the entire world cheering my name felt...supported is an understatement. Thank you for backing me. xo
If you weren't an athlete at high school, you can still run a half marathon as an adult. If you can apply yourself and commit to something, you can do anything. If you can dream it, then you can do it.
And if you can run for 200 metres, you can run a half marathon. :)
2 physical things I was rewarded with at the finish line: my medal and cuddles with my beautiful niece
My bib!
De holding my hand to the Start banner xx
Smiled the whole way!
3rd of the way through
The amazing Courtney
Just after finishing
Hugging one of my brothers
The other side of the sign
Bron, Court, Leisa and Don who cheered me over the finish line
It's my favourite time....goal time! Time to set my goals for Round 3! I still have a bit of work to do on my Round 3 planning, as well as do Pre-Season. But I've set my weekly goals, and seeing as I'm spending my morning today in bed in my onesie, chilling out before the big day tomorrow, I thought it's the perfect opportunity to get these out there!
After my half assed attempt at my Round 2 goals (as of tomorrow I will only have achieved 3 of my 12!), I've transferred the rest to Round 3 and added in some more.
All I did from these goals in Round 2 was to do swimming training, went on the Brisbane Eye Ferris Wheel (& didn't break the carriage from my weight!) and tomorrow I will complete my first half marathon. (Far. Out.) So! Moving onto Round 3 baby!
My favourite thing about these goals is, as much as each one is a challenge for me, each one is something that makes me happy - that I really want to do. Ahhh - I finally discovered the missing link!
I did a big
description about these goals on an old blog post, so I won't repeat the
long stories behind each one. If you're interested and would like to
read the more in depth and personal reasons behind each goal, here's the old blog post:
But...here's a short description of each weeks goal: Week 1: Start The Crazy (start training for the Round 3 finale fitness challenge - I promised myself at Round 3 in 2012 that I would enter it in Round 3, 2012. (What was I thinking??) So I am going to start training! Week 2: Two Worlds Combine (bridge the gap between the life of Coco Girl and the life of Kate - I am one person. No need to separate them so much). Week 3: Girls on Glass Mountains (climb a Glasshouse mountain: Mount Ngungun) Week 4: 1, 2, 3, 4, Do It Just A Little More (climb Mt Coot-tha's Kokoda track 4 times in a row) Week 5: Kate Jordan (play basketball!) Week 6: Breathe...And Repeat (relax...somehow...coz I never can) Week 7: Days Of The Old Schoolyard (This is a new one...and a fun one. When I was in high school, I never did the school cross country run properly. I either had a conveniently timed musical practice, I wagged, or walked at the back eating M&M's in utter schoolgirl defiance of how could they make me EXERCISE! Things have changed this year, so.....in Week 7 I'm going to sneak into my high school and run the cross country course! Better 16 years later than never!) :) Week 8: ...And...Release... (Another new one. I'm going to climb Brisbane's Mt Coot-tha insane Kokoda track with a weighed backpack containing the weight that I have dropped as at that week. Then at the top of the mountain, I'll throw it off me like they do on The Biggest Loser :) This is a symbolic and personal milestone for me and anyone who wants to join me. Week 9: Fly Like A Bird And Glide Like A Swan (go to a theme park! And go on a ride where I won't flood a ride and have the ride operator publicly laugh at me) Week 10: 10 for 10 (run across Brisbane's Story Bridge 10 times, at night: just coz!)
My updated inspiration wall! Getting ready for Round 3
Week 11: For: Me (do something special, for me!) Week 12: The Ultimate Goal (get to my goal weight!) That's them! I'm going to work on these ones better than I did in Round 2! Wish me luck....and please think of me tomorrow as I complete my 3rd goal from Round 2, AKA the biggest thing I have ever done...my first half marathon :) xx
I'm feeling a little overwhelmed right now. I have had a big week - some really full on, exciting stuff has been happening. Things are going well - crazy well in fact, that I have had to calm myself down at times because the inside of me is doing cartwheels and laughing and crying at the same time. But I have just one main thing on my mind. This Sunday is the day!
My first half marathon.
I can't express, to myself even, just how big this is for me. It hit me tonight, so I thought I'd blog a little to settle my thoughts! Part of the enormity of this is the obvious: the fact that this is 21.1km - of which I will be running! For someone who almost collapsed at the 200 metre mark a year ago, this is pretty cool. The other part is just the whole goal thing. I'm feeling really overwhelmed that I set a huge goal, worked at it properly, and am now going to do it. I make goals all the time - any readers of this blog know that the word 'Goal' is synonymous to me - it's my middle name! And I do reach my goals, often; both surrounding weight loss / fitness, and the rest of my life. I have goal checklists like you wouldn't believe. Star sticker charts and goal apps are some of my best friends. But this goal is different. I don't know entirely why. I think it's because, I've done it properly. I have treasured this goal and protected it. For one of the rare times in my life, I have done the 'right' thing and worked towards it smartly. I can be pretty impatient. Sometimes very scatterbrained. I start things and don't finish them. I make grandiose (laminated) plans and pretty Excel spreadsheets with stuff worked out to the finest detail. And then don't follow through. Not always - but sometimes. And as a result,
sometimes I reach my goals, sometimes I don't, and sometimes I achieve them but not in the way I planned...even the best laid plans can give way to making the TV nightly news and being the star of international heists. (I have a weird life - crazy stuff happens to me!) But this goal has been different. I respected it and I guess I respected myself to do the right thing, to give myself the best chance in succeeding. I don't think I've ever really done that before. I have actually trained for this. For about 10 months. Properly.
I've read up about it, I've asked advice. I've made it a priority in my life. I've put my heart and soul into the planning, as well as my head. I had originally planned to do my first half at the Gold Coast Marathon, a month ago. When I didn't think I'd be ready for that, I reassessed my goal, was flexible and changed it to the Brisbane Marathon Festival, a month later. I'm usually
extremely stubborn and pig headed about my goals - once I have my heart set on something, I will make it happen. But this time, I was flexible. This past week I have started preparing for it. With most events I do, I fly by the seat of my pants. I don't read the Information emails that get sent out, I just rock up on the day and learn about what to do from my friends. Not this one. I've studied each email and have everything written down.
My toes were a bit numb last week and I was concerned. Usually I'd ignore it or push through the pain, but I went to see my Osteopath. I want to do everything possible to help myself. I'm taking on her advice. (She's not sure but she thinks it's caused from the way I've been running. She worked on my hip flexors and that worked wonders.)
I had a big day of events planned for the day before my half - some I was really excited about. Mainly stemmed from my Osteo's advice, I have now cancelled them all to give myself the best opportunity for Sunday and to minimise any risk of hurting myself or stressing my body unnecessarily the day before. My plans for Saturday now total: picking up my race pack, hydrating and eating well, packing my things for the next morning and having an early night. That is it :) The night before other major events I have done, I am usually at a party and put up with 3 hours sleep.
I've told my boot camp instructor that I am going to take it easy over the next couple of days and limit my running at boot camp.
At my last run before the big half, my 10km on Sunday, I had a bit of pain on my other foot. I have an unwritten rule with myself that I never ever stop running on an organised run. I haven't ever stopped, once. However on Sunday I saw the big picture and recognised the benefit of stopping very briefly to stretch, before I kept going. I didn't want to damage myself before the half. So I stopped, twice, mid run, to stretch. And the world didn't fall apart :)
I have the race map printed on my desk at work and on the back of my bedroom door. Usually I don't even look at the map, let alone print it!
I feel really ready. I have seen myself progressing since I made this goal in October last year. I have gone from running 200 metres, to 1km, to 5km, to 11km, to 14km, to 16km, and I know, without any doubt, that 21.1km will be no issue. It's so nice entering an event with confidence within myself, due to the work I have done to get to this point. Usually it's just a 'wing it and hope for the best' type scenario. Not this one. This one, I have worked towards the end goal physically and mentally, and I believe in myself.
And now I find myself, 4 days out, reflecting on the past year. All of my runs have been flashing past my eyes...even my 2 months of not being able to run thanks to crutches and the moon boot.
I still remember my first 5km run, and the advice my lovely friend Wendy told me the day before that. "If you can run 1km, you can run 2km." Well I proved her right, and not only ran the 2km, I ran 5km.
And so this Sunday I will prove to myself that if you can run 200 metres, you can run 21.1km. If you can dream a dream, plan a goal, focus on it, respect it, and work hard on it, you can make it come true.
All that's left for me now is to enjoy it. An awesome runner friend, Kym, said that, and I realised it is true. I think I've been so careful in planning this, that I now have to let go and just enjoy the experience. Wish me luck...this is seriously the biggest thing I have ever done. And I couldn't be more excited :) xo
